[excerpt from “Finish to Starting Line”]

I often tell myself that, “I’m not good enough” for other people. I’ve convinced myself of that and have my reasons to justify that statement.

But I realized that it’s not that I’m not “good enough” for them, I’m just not “good enough” for me.

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Helen mentioned that I grew into my past. Maybe she’s right. Maybe I am in many ways the same person I was before.

Maybe I’m just cynical now, because of that fact—because of the so many attempts to change and to grow, that I’m right back where I started.