Song: By Your Side
Artist: Sade
Album: Lovers Rock

I had an interesting conversation with one of my co-workers last night, J.D.

He’s been working there for the same amount of years as I have (read: 8) and I have passed him by on many occasions but it’s not like we really know each other. He just recently joined my team/section, but, then again, there is only a half an hour overlap in our shifts. Anyway, yesterday was his one year wedding anniversary and I had asked him how his dinner plans had went.

In part of the conversation about marriage, he was surprised to find out that I wasn’t. He couldn’t explain it, but he said that there are just people he looks at and assumes they are married, and all this time, I was one of them. He told me that he thought I was the kind of person who “would make a good wife.” He thinks I have a good head on my shoulders and I appear to be focused which somehow leads to a conclusion that I was already married. Go figure.

I will try not to over-analyze it cos I’m sure I could find some way to take offense to that when I know he didn’t mean any to begin with. I just thought it was odd to be considered as “already married” as a first impression, or that I give off this aura of married-ness.

*

Anyway, the conversation led to weddings—more specifically, he asked how my eventual wedding would be like.

Growing up, I was never one of those girls who had these dreams or convictions of what my wedding was going to be like (with the exception that I always tended to see it not being in a church, even when I was taking CCD). Even with the recent weddings I’ve attended (and one I had been a part of), I really don’t give it much thought. Infer what you will from that, but, I guess I’ve always figured that I’ll cross that bridge when the time (or ring) comes.

I’d like to think, though, that “my” wedding would be more of a collaboration between my fiance and I.

But still, over the last few years, the only “mental tear pages” of what my wedding would be like are two or three songs I’d like to have played sometime during the course of the day.

Given there wouldn’t be a more meaningful/significant song between him and I, I kind of thought that this song would be the song I’d love to have for our first dance.

Listening to it can still sometimes get me all tingly inside.