A recent conversation with my friend E reminded me of this post:

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So he dropped me off at my apartment. I told him, “We need to hang out more. You need to email me or call me. And I’ll do the same. Cos this was fun, and I want to continue to do this again.”

As I shut the door and I was telling him “Take care” I thought I heard him say, “I love you, take care.”

And damn. The whole damn evening was nice up until that point. It sorta got me mad. I thought, “Save your ‘I love yous’ for someone else.” The whole night was lovely, and then he had to go and say that?!

I know, I’m mean, aren’t I?

I didn’t take it in that sense. It wasn’t like “that kind” of “I love you.” It was the kind you throw to your platonic friends. But I thought, “Save it for her for when you mean it in ‘that kind’ of way.”

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I wish people (guys) wouldn’t use up their “I love yous” on me. Unless in “that kind” of way. You may say “I care about you greatly.” But I think that I’d rather not hear it unless in the “right kind” of sense. Cos then, when I finally do hear it, I’ll know that it was in “that kind” of way.

No, I’m not bitter.

I just think it would make it more special, that’s all.